Today !

Meet adzfar in the morning , he gave me a teddy bear ! Then teacher's day performance..Sian. Later went bukit merah central library slack , Kimmy,Derrick,Eugene And Ming Shuen suddenly want meet , Eugene ask me if i want accompany them see them smoke? Then go down liao see them shake leg, pai pose only lurhs. nothing much ! then i went macdonald le. I bough a new earring ! :D
Here are s0me pixs ~ There are one teddy bear pic and one new earring ! x3x3

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I Love Him , I Hate Him.
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The Last Chance Ahead.
As Our Long Love Fades.
We Did Love And We Did Hate.
I Dare Not To Say Our Love's Apart.
But I Dare To Say I Love You From Start.
Though We Make It Through Now.
But There's More In Just Thinking How?
Though We Fight And Messed Things Up.
I Will Always Love You From My Heart.
People May Think It's Game.
But For Us It's More Than Lame.
You May Not Understand What I Am.
But I Know We'll Be Together In The End.
Bcuz I Have The Courage To Give And Take.
I Know Our Love Is Fate.
If Something Tears Us Apart.
Dont Stay Down,Just Get Up.
Sometimes The Truth Is Hard.
But Lying From The Start,
To Lie Yourself From What's What?
We Fall Down Just By Fights.
So Just Stand Up For Our Love Inside.

Poem By ME! :D

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Don't worry , I Got Over Marcus In The End, There's one time when he broke up with me afew days later i had a dream he called me hahs ! :D

Missed

There's this guy,Marcus..we stead very long before . Almost every night we talk more then 4hours before i sleep and so does he , he'll always ask me if im tired or sleepy in the chat .. He's always watching TV. That time when i was feeling down he gave me 12reasons to be happy , he kept repeating Marcus love you marcus need you marucs want you and others about us . I was touched , haha. We never quarrel cause either me or him will give in , that's what love is about..when i was bullied or alone in real life he was always dare for me ! Like my guardian angel.. now i seems to be standing alone..Marcus will always go crazy for me !! I can tell he loves me alot , last time.. He told all his friends about me ! Even once he went to a challet with his friends , before he left the challet room , he carved our names and have a big heart shape around it..One day he found out i was with Desmond and we ended our relationship..From then on when i call or text him he'll never reply..He said he's moved on with some other girl..but he promised me he'll always have love for me..The 12reasons has faded away..So did Marcus.

There's this guy,Desmond..We stead before he made me happy always when Im with him last time..now times have changed , places and humans changed too . He don't understand me anymore..He said I have changed but everybody does..He said im using hm as a replacement but he don't get me at all.. I feel hated with him. I wish he could understand me that Im nothing but myself , He always say Im lying to myself but the truth is he dont understand..Im me and his not , That is a fact he cant change.. I hope he will get it .. Someday Somehow.. :D

Went to have fun and joy !

Yesterday.. Which is sunday went out to vivo with my sister and friends , haha we play the swirling time like crazy ! we were like owning the whole swirling thingy..
hahas ! then kids came we push the swirling thing to the limit , and wow ! kids like it too so do we , so we stand up and they sit ! hahas fell alot of times which made me kinda funny looking XD , went to makan in macdonald ~ after that went to the vivo city the kinda like a small pool ? yeah.. kinda funny we had fun but the pebbles hurt when we step on it XD .. When i was looking at kids playing my sis took a pic of me ! TEEHEE that bitch :D Just for the fun of it XD so bo liao . Desmond was emo-ing onthe phone , not fun AT ALL !! Buhbyes x3Me

Nobody understands me the way you do !

So..I admit i miss being loved again.. But who understands ? No boys made me felt love since the beginning of this year . Miss those days when I felt loved and the luckiest girl on earth . Now im beginning to take back my words. XD im still not that depressed about it. Everyone around never ever take a look in my eyes , nobody understands except for one or two who would cheer me up , some just will knock you down when im already on the ground..They say i've changed, i have reasons? Different behaviour towards different people. Haha though i tried to blend in , it sometimes pushes me out but hey ! Im okay ~ Just so complicated , but i have a friend who will listen and cheers me up ~ the girl he's steading must be so lucky XD Im his ex so i really felt loved when i was with him..I broke up with 2 boys which really love me wholely and dearly just for Desmond..Although i have moved on , sometimes it's so hard to forget them..But im not emo or anything because in this world there are much more people that are suffering more then me , So if it's FATE ~ I wont blame it..HAHA ~ :D I LOVE ME!

The word "NOOB"

Take care desmond ~ today kana buay song by desmond (xiao qi gui ) for the whole morning till school ended ~! Just by the word "noob" =.= he can call me ,i cant ! the world ish so unfair !

JFF= Just For Fun.

Afew days ago, adzfar asked me out ~ he said " wanna go to timezone with me? I will help you pay for you if only you and me go." So i said Okays ~ haha , cheat people money arhs me ? Orh Hor !! Haha Just for fun I dont mean to ~ I like the arcade alot!! XD money face ~ hope adzfar not reading this ><" sorry today you say Hello i ingored you,Adzfar ! I was talking to my LaoGong ~ Haha Desmond likes to backstab me in his blog T_T he bullys me! Umm..Today gan jie jie ask me to go to her brithday party at downtown east on some other day i forgot which but..other day .. haha Xie xie Kai Ting jie jie ! I see first if i can go lorhs..Chatting with desmond ~ :D Tommorrow dont know if wanna go volleyball training , aiya see first lorhs . Okays blog later , chat now ! Buhbyes x3x3 CJY LaoGong !

HeHe~

:D today had a fun time with friends , 3 people each took a cab to school . my first 3 freinds took the first cab , my second group of friends (with me) took the second one.. haha the cabs were somehow like racing each other ! :D just saw desmond's blog call me a bitch ? you're no better then a dog fucker ~! L.O.S.E.R~! x3x3 CJY
LaoGong!